sleepy. raw. alive.

i feel sleepy af right now.

last night i slept like 6 hours which is decent for me. but bro i worked my ass off. good shit though. so many calls with interns, so much reddit work, so much seo and gtm stuff. insane day. the kind where you don’t even realize it’s over until your eyes start shutting on their own.

idk i feel sleepy but the plan is to wake up early tomorrow. lol. that’s always the plan.

there’s a lot pending too. always is.

so about 4 days back, i had a breakdown. insane tonsils, very high fever, and i was alone. like fr alone. and i was still working because what else do you do. called rohan at night, he picked up. felt nice. watched a movie and then back to work. that’s the cycle.

i feel too good and raw right now writing this.

this week, yesterday actually, met some good friends. shishir, samiksh, varun. ordered food, watched some movies, chatted for hours. too much fun. and this was after like 9+ months of not hanging out. maybe more, i lost count.

but here’s the thing that hits, i know this won’t happen again for the next 3-4 months. and that makes me think, do i even have friends? like real regular friends?

the only people i genuinely care about are the ones i work with. arnav, geeta, mihil, rohan, pranav, vedant. my life revolves around them. talking, figuring stuff out, bakchodi, meetings, everything. they’re my circle.

oh and did i mention, in january i met arnav. bro lives near the ambanis. yup, THE ambanis. he’s from bihar (happy rahul moment). his nani shared some stories and stuff. wholesome vibes.

where were we. yea, my life revolves around work people. and when i’m bored, i’m either exploring cafes solo or going on a 30km ride through insane traffic with some songs on. that’s my version of peace.

some updates before i pass out:

• started plasticmoney.xyz, more on that soon.
• this blog is getting improvements. gonna play around with it more.
• work is not slowing down and honestly i don’t want it to.

if you’re new here, read the banaras series or the humble post. that’s where it all started.

ok sleeping now for real. good night or good morning, you decide.